What Am I To You: Episode 8

by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla I leave Tristan’s place feeling better. He sounded so excited to be back and start a new life that I almost forgot my own problems. I didn’t want to burden him with my Matthew issues. Well, at least not yet. Sure, I’ve updated him about the dating part but I didn’t tell…

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What Am I To You: Episode 7

by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla Unlike my college buddy Hazel who spent the following year after college traveling and meeting boys, I joined the workforce two months after graduation. I had so much pent-up energy that I needed to throw myself into work. I was single for a long time. I was bored. And I was fed…

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What Am I To You: Episode 6

by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla I had almost forgotten what it was like to be with him. How it feels to be the one beside Matthew and have all the other girls feel a lot less. Men like him are a rarity. At least, in my current circles and in my own twisted point of view. The…

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What Am I To You: Episode 5

by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla You are such a loser, says Veronica, my bitchy alter ego. Oh my God. I am being stood up again. Where the fuck is he? Did he hit his head this morning and suddenly forget that he asked me out tonight? Did he, like, die or something? Or does he really enjoy…

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What Am I To You: Episode 4

by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla It’s been a week since the Tagaytay escape. I’m not even sure if I should call it an escape. It seems, at least to me, that I walked right back into a trap. I am back at the office. Today, I’m wearing tasteful work dress on a Friday night. For someone who…

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What Am I To You: Episode 3

by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla My college life was split in half: the one before Matthew and the years after it. When I graduated from college, I told myself I was closing a phase. Four years later, who would have thought that I never really got out of the same rabbit hole. Am I the same girl…

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What Am I To You: Episode 2

by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla Four years later. Greenbelt 3, Makati City. Cold. That’s how I’ve always described the night breeze in Makati. Even in the summer, when the city is bursting with life, Makati feels cold, distant. Maybe that’s why people who live and work here can’t survive without their caffeine and alcohol. Something to keep them…

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What Am I To You: Episode 1

by Kath C. Eustaquio-Derla Photo by Scott Baraquel Jr.They say memory is subjective. So how come we remember so much of what we want to forget? They say you’ll fall madly in love only once or twice in a lifetime, and the rest will be a blur. I made the same stupid mistake in the same…

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